hot ice

you inspire me...

ever since we met

cold night

hot thoughts

you desired me

do I know you?

"meet me at the public theater

tomorrow,

we'll have dinner and see a play,

it's my night off"

you said.

do I know you?

Am I going?

I went

dinner

play

cocktails

"lets have some cocktails"

I have to leave

tomorrow

"no"

I do

"leave me your number,

all your numbers"

cold night

New York city

I didn't see the snow

but I met

your warm body

and your hot soul

you and me

jealousy

what the fuck is that?

I don't know

lier!

why with you

crazy thought

you are not mine

I'm not yours

shut my brain up

cool my heart down

fuck!

why do I think about it

you are not mine

the world owns you

the art loves you

fuck you

fuck me

I'm jealous of you

of everything that

I can't have with you

I won't be there

you won't be here

and life will go on

not as fun

not as crazy

nor sexy

could we ever be?

we'll never know

'cause your are not mine

and I'm not yours

skype

I don't wanna see you anymore

go

my sentimental heart is crying

please go

why are you still here

the very thought of you 

drives me insane

I saw your face last night

you look tired

I didn' wanna see you

but you called

I saw your smile

"You want some of the pasta dish I'm making",

you said.

No thank you

I can eat right now

I have to go

It's too hard that you still here

"maybe we can see the view before I go"

you asked.

yes, please

I have to spend one last night with you

than please 

go.

scramble eggs

the touch of your skin

our feet

my back

come here, babe

"lets be sexy"

wake up slow

shower

music

"look who's in the kitchen",

he says.

the king of scramble eggs

coffee

"I love your coffee"

I love doing breakfast with you

bed time

 

                         your soft skin

your tender lips 

         

           the smell

hum, what's that smell?

           you

the taste                                                     

          the touch

ride me slow

           you make me horny

talk to me

           I love how you 

make me cum

           now fuck me

look at me

           into my eyes

I don't want to 

                      be alone

                                                           

home cooked meal

wine

words

smell of pasta

light changing

"can I move this?"

yes, handsome!

you drove me nuts

and I loved it

never thought I could like 

Bukowski more than 

I already do

only in your voice

manhãzinha chuvosa

um olhar                                     

run Forest, run!

abraço molhado

calafrio

giros loucos

"stop!"

corpos rolando na areia

riso solto

como você é criança                             

abraço apertado

corpos envoltos de areia

"filho da puta!"

riso louco

adoro seu jeito

seu cheiro

seu gosto

beijos salgados

doce lembrança

your eyes

Why do you have to leave

why did you come in the first place

I hate that it's so good

to talk to you

to hear your ideas

about art

your thoughts

about love

life

I hate you because you said:

"don't turn, I wanna look at you"

while we made love

Why did you have 

to look at me like you did

deep into my eyes

deep into my soul

I may fall in love with you

and it's too late

I just did

and now you have to go

you have to leave

and I hate you

because 

you made me look

into your eyes

I hate you

because

you looked 

into my soul

I hate you

because

you made me

fall in love 

with you

pois é

Tenho por você 

algo que não sei

algo que nunca falei

tudo que não procurei

10/08/06

goodbye, my love

"deadly ash of everything

we've mauled it to pieces

ripped the head off

the arms

the legs

cut away the sexual organs

pissed on the heart

deadly ash of everything

everywhere

the sidewalks are now harder

the eyes of the populace crueler

the music more tasteless

ash

I'm left with pure 

ash

first we pissed on the heart

now we piss on the ash."

BUKOWSKI